19.10.2008
Dear Miss Brown
I hope that you are alright, and everything is good with you: your
health, your family your friends, your grades and that in general your
are enjoying your life as I know you are 🙂
You may not read it, but I still feel I need to explain what I did: I
took you advice “PLEASE take care of yourself”, I found out that
seeing you or reading your letters causes me pain. I realized that I
cannot allow myself another year like that so you can a wonderful 2
– weeks vacation, I really wish I could. I wish I could be your love
light from above, your rainbow raises on, your Israeli lover. I’m
sorry Jessica, te quiero. I really wish I wouldn’t but I do and there
seems nothing I can do about it. I couldn’t promise you I will see you
(although I know I will spend every moment with if you will come here)
– because it might make me think you are coming here because of me.
I found out I can let you come here again, disculpe. I couldn’t tell
you that – because it might would hurt you. I’m really sorry I did it
that way. I kept writing you as you asked ,but I couldn’t send the
letters. You would have answered them.
It was enough to read what you just wrote – and to see how my body
reacts (I almost fainted, I had to lay down on the floor for a minute
and sleep for 2 hours), to understand that I did what I had to do.
You don’t need to answer me, I will understand if you will hate and
don’t want to talk with me.
Disculpe
Te quiero
Gad 🙂